Hello avid readers and congratulations. We have survived the first week of January 2021 and what a week it has been. If you are working in academia, perhaps your week has started with teaching, teaching prep or jumping back into research. Perhaps, you have had to significantly change your plans because of the evolving pandemic situation. This first week of the year, has probably felt exhausting and overwhelming, for more reasons that just work. We have already experienced riots that shocked the world, threats to democracy and constitutional rights, calls for impeachment, calls for leadership, orders to stay at home, more threats to industry, mental and physical health, and work-life balance. In the midst of all of these global events, many of us are just keeping our heads down, powering on, and trying to keep our own, individual worlds turning.
This year, moreso than other years, I feel the need to reflect on what I have achieved and focus less on what I need to achieve in the future. Such thinking has definitely been inspired by Petra Boyton’s #researcherrenew challenges, which I have engaged with for the last few years, and her book Being Well in Academia
Ways to Feel Stronger, Safer and More Connected. I was so grateful to receive the book as a Christmas gift and it is packed full of self-check tasks and resources to help with a variety of issues.
So far, my circumstances have privileged me to work from home with little distraction, but I have definitely struggled with researcher’s guilt and overwork. There have been moments when I have felt absolutely exhausted, but also guilty for not working when I am “doing nothing”. I did have a big project to work on throughout last year and certainly in the second half of the year I devoted all of my attention to it. Unfortunately, after it was complete, I experienced similar feelings as I did when I finished my PhD. I couldn’t let myself rest. I was upset and agitated, rather than happy and satisfied. So, in a bid to reset my tired mind, I am trying to recenter myself and focus in on the little and the big things I have managed to accomplish.
Last summer, I started bullet journalling, with a particular focus on goals. I have always had a “to do list” and take pleasure in scoring off completed tasks, but the bullet journal was a way to focus on a small number of large tasks each month. Unfortunately, the months when I didn’t achieve every goal I felt a little deflated, but it did help me re-evaluate what I can do in a month.
This year, I am continuing with bullet journalling, but I am also writing a list of things I have achieved. Some are as simple as reading a non-academic book or finishing a game. Others, are much larger achievements, such as organising and successfully delivering an online academic conference. If you want to know more about that see https://www.bsecs.org.uk/conferences/annual-conference/.
If I have taken anything away from the events of 2020, it’s that I spend too much time sprinting from day-to-day, month-to-month, with little reflection on where I have been. Academic goals are what drive me, but in a year of so much turmoil, which is unlikely to calm in the near future, it is important to take a step back, to slow down, and appreciate what has been possible in difficult circumstances.