Writing habits: why procrastination is necessary

This blog has offered a space for me to really analyse and improve my writing practice. While I have embedded new techniques to develop a more positive approach to writing, including a regular writing schedule, creating a practice that works for me and careful editing, I have also observed a few unconscious habits. I don’t think these need to be expelled from my practice but it has been an interesting exercise working out why and how these developed.

This month my writing task is to work on chapter 5 of my book and each week since the start of the year I have been spending between 3-5 hours reading through the old version of the chapter, gathering new reading, working out the new argument, outline and structure. All of this seems very positive BUT I have really struggled to get words on the page. I have been writing, but the words felt awkward, almost like the final season of Game of Thrones. The words are functioning exactly as I want them to, but rather than gently directing the reader through the prose, they were being grabbed and jerkily pushed through each sentence. Now, this is a 0-draft and editing time still needs to be spent, but I was frustrated that the organic flow was missing. This hampered my desire to see what would happen in the next section and ultimately was encouraging procrastinating behaviours.

In the past, this is where I would give up on the manuscript for a time or I would angrily press on and not want to re-read and edit the thing later. I didn’t realise that editing-avoidance was a common issue and is linked to procrastination. The Writing Centre at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill has written a detailed hand-out all about editing-avoidance and procrastination with some tips on how to beat the problem. I have developed a much more positive approach to editing by calling my initial ‘idea binge’ a 0-draft – basically, an idea draft that needs more work and attention after all the ideas are on the page. However, I have found I still need a sense of flow to be able to progress with the manuscript. If there is no natural flow, I really struggle to know if the piece is working or what to do next.

This is where reading and re-reading can be helpful but also a hindrance. Working in academia, I read to support and improve my work but if I feel unclear or uncertain, reading is an excuse I use to not write. Yesterday, I felt this overwhelming fear that maybe someone had already made this argument, maybe I was missing crucial information and maybe what I had to say was invalid. My inspiration for the chapter was slipping a way, an experience which was quite different to what April Davis described in her article on ‘Why writer’s procrastinate‘. It then hit me. Maybe the problem was with the overall chapter structure of the book, and maybe if I reorganised some things I would find it easier to begin this chapter. Annoyingly, a colleague had already pointed this out to me before I sent in the book proposal, but I had a very clear vision of the book at that point. Now I am writing it, that vision has shifted and I will likely need to do an overall re-edit of all chapters further down the line so that whatever structure I choose works throughout. As soon as I reworked the overall structure, I finally found its natural flow. It only took me 40 minutes to write 800 words I was happy with, and to chart a plan for the next section.

While procrastination is not always a positive aspect of writing and there are plenty of articles on how to avoid procrastinating, I have realised that it is often necessary. It alerts me to a bigger problem. To relook at an issue and work through it. Paying attention to why I am procrastinating rather than giving into it is a really powerful skill and I hope it will make my work much stronger overall.

Songs of Home: a musical exhibition presented by Sydney Living Museums

I started this blog just under three years ago, when I embarked on my first international research adventure. As a newly minted PhD, I was in search of a new project, something a little different from what I had been working on. After being invited by Professor Jeanice Brooks to one of her fabulous Sound Heritage events, I met Dr Matthew Stephens, who was starting to collect some early nineteenth-century bound music collections at Sydney Living Museum. Some of these collections had even travelled from Scotland to Australia during the first wave of emigration. After an in-person conversation, many emails and one successful funding application later, I was heading to Sydney to take a closer look at these bound volumes.

While some of the music was unique, most of it was quite common and could be found in libraries all over Britain. But the music alone wasn’t the point of the trip. I wanted to find out the stories of these early colonists. I wanted to explore the role music played in their lives and if there was any evidence they maintained a sense of ‘home’ by collecting certain pieces of music. This isn’t an easy question to answer, but collection after collection did include a substantial amount of Scots song. Enough to make me wonder…

Well, three years on and Dr Matthew Stephens and his team have continued to explore early colonial music, this time taking the idea of ‘home’ to focus on musical collection and performance in the domestic setting. The collections have inspired performances, research projects, albums and a fabulous exhibition which is due to close next week. Here he is talking about one of the items in the exhibition, Napoleon’s guitar:

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10157901119140087&id=154851410086

There is even a video which showcases the exhibition is all its glory:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=q_cXqhfJhKU&t=1&feature=youtu.be

Concerto Caledonia have even recorded some music for the exhibition (recorded at Dalkeith Palace, Scotland):

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10157951561850087&id=154851410086

This year, along with my colleagues Dr David McGuinness and Dr Aaron McGregor, I returned to Sydney to look at another collection of music. The Murray Collection contains hundreds of musical items, some dating from long before the family established their first homestead, Warrawang. Not only did I get the chance to research this music, but I also heard it come to life. In just two weeks, Concerto Caledonia and the Evergreen Ensemble pulled together several concerts, a couple of workshops and an album.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=vD319ci91rc

There is still much research work to be done, but so far the music collection at Sydney Living Museums has yielded an immense amount of research, performance and public interest. I am so pleased to have played a tiny part in the story so far…

Curious Caledonians out now!

In June this year, I had the wonderful opportunity to return to Australia and continue my research work on music Scottish emigrants who took their music collections with them to Australia. It was a crazy, invigorating, inspiring and exhausting trip! On my previous visit, I was mostly working alone and could only imagine the music in my mind (though I did record two if the songs as well) but this time a whole team of musicians were also part of the process! We now have a stunning album, which not only showcases some fantastic tunes, but also brings to life some really unusual music that hasn’t been performed in almost two hundred years. Here are some further details, taken from the Evergreen Ensemble Facebook page:

Evergreen Ensemble continues their fascinating journey into the sound world of colonial Australia with this enchanting album of instrumental and vocal music drawn from the music collections of Sydney Living Museums and the State Library of New South Wales. Bringing together Australia and Scotland’s finest Early Music talent and iconic folk artists, Evergreen Ensemble weaves stories back through time, rediscovering the sounds of folk melodies performed on period instruments.

For their new album Curious Caledonians, ensemble director and violinist Shane Lestideau has invited four renowned guest musicians to bring their specialised knowledge of eighteenth and nineteenth-century performance styles to the recording. With the help of Scottish researcher, Brianna Robertson-Kirkland, they have delved deep into the nation’s musical archives to discover treasures hidden in the personal music books and manuscripts lovingly bound together by their owners for safe-keeping. Much of this music bears the unmistakable flavour of Scotland: strathspeys and reels, haunting Gaelic airs and arrangements of favourite Scottish songs and tunes. It gives us the chance to ‘listen at the window’ of a Scottish-Australian house in the nineteenth century and consider what place these songs, piano duets and quadrilles may have had in their lives.

The album features the dulcet tones of mezzo-soprano Allegra Giagu and soprano Claire Patti, with Claire also appearing on Celtic harp. Australian violinists Shane Lestideau and Ben Dollman (Australian Brandenburg Orchestra) are joined by Aaron McGregor of the renowned Scottish Baroque ensemble Concerto Caledonia, with acclaimed Australian Baroque cellist Daniel Yeadon completing the string section. Performing on an authentic 19th-century Collard & Collard square piano are historical keyboard specialists Neal Peres Da Costa (University of Sydney) and David McGuinness (Concerto Caledonia).

Curious Caledonians offers a rare insight into domestic and public music-making in Australia since 1788, honouring the extraordinary contributions of Scottish culture to Australian society and exploring Scottish music’s unique ability to reinvent itself in new surroundings. Part classical, part folk, part Scottish, part Australian, this album captures the musical – and emotional – landscape of the early Australian settlement.

TRACKLISTING
1. Miss Susanna Baird’s Reel / Miss Johnston’s Reel
2. Black Mary
3. The Emigrant Highlander’s Wife *
4. The Blue Bell of Scotland
5. Morag
6. Laddie Oh Leave Me *
7. Hit Her on the Bum
8. The Favorite Scotch Rondo *
9. The Hen’s March / Sir George Murray’s Favorite / The Duke of Wellington
10. The Marquis of Huntly’s Welcome Home / [No] 6 Dance
11. Ye Banks and Braes *
12. Jenny Dang the Weaver
13. The Banks of Clyde *
14. Lord Moira’s Welcome / Miss Jeann Stewart of Bohally’s Reel
15. The Horse-man’s Port
16. Queen of France’s Lamentation *
17. Blackbird Waltz
18. La Fenella
19. Don Alphonso

Evergreen Ensemble
Shane Lestideau violin
Ben Dollman violin & viola
Allegra Giagu mezzo-soprano *
Claire Patti soprano & Celtic harp

Guest Artists
Aaron McGregor violin
Daniel Yeadon cello
Neal Peres Da Costa 19th-century square piano
David McGuinness 19th-century square piano & harpsichord

Research: Brianna Robertson-Kirkland

1CD + Digital album | Available 4 October 2019 | ABC 481 8774

Here is a link to the album playlist:

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_mkVPeV0hxkV4Bh0EmZWQK5Rz7obURGogg

Belcher workbook day 6: Rereading your paper

Today, I was quite excited to re-read the introduction to my thesis, but as I read I felt an uneasy feeling in my chest. It didn’t quite turn into a panic attack, but I did experience that uncomfortable tightening as my body slowly moved into ‘flight’ mode. This is partly because of past experiences and my fear that the thesis just isn’t (and wasn’t) good enough to begin with. Re-reading it through, the introduction fulfils the requirements of a PhD. It is a clear literature review that sums up the debates and arguments of others, but positioning my study in these debates is less successful. Though I am definite with my aims, the aims are broad and lack focus. I am both general and specific at the same time (and I am not entirely sure how I managed to do that!) In any case, three years on from the PhD I can now see these glaring errors, which not only proves a certain amount of distance is required before making a fresh start but also demonstrates how I have grown as a researcher and writer during this time.

Belcher recommends being kind to oneself and making brief, clear notes on what to do. The issue is, this introduction needs a lot of work, so much so, starting from scratch seems to be the best way forward. That being said, I stuck to her advice and made notes throughout the chapter. I have recommended where to take bits out and move to another chapter and told myself where to expand an argument or debate. Going through this exercise helped to clarify my overall argument and approach. While a lot of work still needs to be done, at least I have a clear idea of how and why!

The first thing is methodology. Throughout my thesis I wasn’t always clear about how I was going about things. I was essentially a lost sheep, trying to follow the mob of other PhD students around me. Methodology never really came up in my supervisions and I just assumed whatever I was doing was the correct thing. Well, when I received feedback on my original book proposal, the number 1 critical comment on the list was that my methodology wasn’t clear. To this I say, fair enough and re-reading my introduction is confirmation that no discussion on methodology is present. Today, I took two books I admire from my book shelf and read their preface. One states a clear methodology, the other is less explicit but no less clear about how it went about things. I am not exactly going to copy what these books have done, but I am going to investigate different methodological approaches and see what best fits what I did (or if nothing fits, re-do the research).

The second thing is having a clear argument and position without bashing other authors. As a PhD student, I falsely thought that I needed to point out where others had got it wrong. I thought this was the best way to form an argument. Belcher quite rightly points out that is the a successful way to turn your reviewers off! Instead, a humbler approach is recommended. Politely joining the end of the queue is going to turn a lot less disgruntled heads than pushing oneself into the middle of it!

Finally, I need to avoid doing too much in too little a space. My thesis fires off in a million directions all at once. This is partly because I so  desperately wanted it to say something about the ‘now’, while also being about the ‘then’. I knew I had something to say, but I didn’t know how to say it. Instead I was distracted by every tiny detail and decided blurting everything out in a scatter gun approach was bound to land on a target. Well it did. I got a PhD but my days as an inexperienced student are now over and I need to be much more strategic, firing like a skilled sniper.

I have decided to summarise my edits rather than uploading them. I can’t give the whole game away after all!

Belcher workbook day 5: Starting your article (well, in my case book chapter)

So for this exercise, I am going to try it with both my book chapter and an article. This is partly because Belcher recommends maintaining several writing projects at once. While I might not be able to keep up 2 pieces of writing for the whole 12 weeks, this may help me gain headway with another piece of writing allowing me to switch out my book chapter if I ever get stuck/bored. So here we go…

Week 2 day 1

Book

What type of book is this?

This is definitely a humanities book. It focusses on one particular area of history.

Is my book type not recommended?

This particularly question doesn’t fit with a book publication.

What is new about my book?

John Potter in his ground-breaking article The Tenor-Castrato Connection discussed the influence the castrato voice had on the tenor and showed how singing technique for the tenor voice developed throughout the 19th century. He used a combination of contextual musicology and analysis of treatises to justify his reasoning. My book will show the castrati actually had an even bigger impact on the female soprano voice, long before the tenor. I focus my study on Venanzio Rauzzini and though one publication has already been dedicated to this castrato, he didn’t not address Rauzzini’s teaching nor his relationships with women, which were constantly under scrutiny. My approach uses a combination of treatise analysis, contextual history, critical history but also Helen Berry’s approach – microhistory – where I move beyond written texts to recover the relationship that developed between Rauzzini and his students including the process of training.

What revisions do I need to make?

My methodological approach and premise of the for the book are not clear in the introduction. While it summarises a lot of literature, it is trying to deal with contemporary and historical issues all at once, which muddies the actual study. The overall argument and direction needs to be clear. The story needs to be clear. My voice needs to be mine.

My book is about?

My book is specifically about Rauzzini and the women in his circle, but it also hones in on larger issues of scandal, marketing, style, technique. training, skill and genius. While training is a big part of the study and was clearly important in the late 18th century, reputation, and networks are also a big part of the study. One could have all the training in the world but be a flop if they haven’t develop the correct relationships. Microhistory could be a potential method for this study – focussing on an individual – but social history could also be a valid approach.

What I learned from this experience?

I learned that I need to have a clear idea of methodology and approach. This isn’t clear in my thesis and is partly the downfall of the study. While I am inspired by other authors, I need to make sure that whatever methodology I choose it is consistent. I am a little worried that the study is dealing with 2 different issues and I need to ensure the narrative flows from one chapter to another to make a convincing story-ark.

Original abstract

Though the castrato has been absent from the operatic stage since the nineteenth century, this voice is often described as the mysterious link in understanding the vocal techniques attributed to bel canto. The mystery lies in the fact that the voice of the operatic castrato cannot be heard by modern ears; and yet its legacy can be seen in the vocal tuition of several successful opera singers at the turn of the nineteenth century. What is unusual about this period is that some of the most successful singers of the day, including Nancy Storace, John Braham and Elizabeth Billington were British and shared the same vocal teacher. The castrato Venanzio Rauzzini (1746-1810) began his career as a primo uomo on the continent and while he established himself in various areas of musical activity, his main contribution and legacy was as a vocal teacher. During his residency in Britain from 1774 until his death, he trained several leading British professional singers who were the stars of opera in London and on the continent. They each demonstrated a use of techniques associated with the castrato vocal aesthetic and popularised a new vocal style, which can be traced to Rauzzini.
Through this thesis, I will draw attention to the importance of Rauzzini’s impact on vocal teaching practice in Britain and his wider influence on the development of vocal style. I will demonstrate that Rauzzini should be considered part of the vocal teaching canon to which Pier Francesco Tosi (c.1653-1732), Nicola Porpora (1686-1768) and Manual García II (1805-1906), three other foreign vocal teachers, who were resident in Britain, already belong. By examining exactly what the expected vocal aesthetics were for all singers, castrato, non-castrated male and female during the period in which Rauzzini was active, I will demystify the castrato technique and provide a more tangible understanding of what this encompassed, demonstrating that many of these techniques were learned, performed and popularised by other voice types such as the female soprano and the male tenor.

Revisions after partner work

This is a task for day 3 of week 2!

Article

What type of article is this?

Again, it is a humanities article.

Is my article type not recommended?

It is, but there isn’t a lot of guidance from Belcher on this type of article.

What is new about my article?

There are a couple of things it is trying to suggest. number one is that I suggest the songs were included in Ramsay’s Gentle Shepherd because the headmaster was experimenting with a more integrated, arts-led learning strategy. This builds on what previous scholars have said about him using theatre as a more innovative form of education. Number two: I suggest Lesley was campaigning for a music master that had more strings to his bow than just music. This ultimately led to the hiring of David Young, who would become rector of the grammar school. Number 3: I suggest the songs were common tunes in circulation because the current music master in the employ of the school was more familiar with this colloquial repertoire. Number 4: the current music master was dismissed because of his political affiliation, which worked to the headmasters benefit since he could employ a music master with a diverse range of skills.

What revisions do I need to make?

There are perhaps too many ideas here. While integrative arts teaching is building on previous scholarly work, but tying in music as well, I am not entirely confident in this area and more work needs to be done to make it solid. In some ways I can see how it all ties together, but I am worried there are several disparate ideas emerging and not one succinct idea. That being said, I don’t think one or two of the ideas is enough for a whole article… I need to have a solid understanding of previous research into theatre, music and provide solid evidence of the two being used in an innovative teaching strategy proposed by the headmaster for it to carry any weight. The argument perhaps falls down with the introduction of David Young who did not incorporate music or theatre into the boys general education, though he himself was a polymath master.

What I learned from this experience:

Ultimately, my writing partner pointed out that this article isn’t quite as strong as the book abstract, partly because I haven’t been thinking about it for as long. It needs a more time to develop.

Original Abstract

Allan Ramsay’s The Gentle Shepherd was an undeniable success. It has a rich performing history that spans two centuries with further evidence demonstrating a national and international reach. It was performed throughout the Scotland, England, North America and even Australia by professional and amateur companies. Most of these performances typically took place in an indoor theatre, particularly in later 19th-century performances where The Gentle Shepherd’s musical and rhetorical framework was standardised to its recognisable model. However, the early performance history of this work is not as neatly packaged, with Ramsay even making significant changes to the text creating a 22-song ballad opera out of the original work, which was mainly spoken though did include 4 songs. Who performed this work in either iteration? Where and in what way was the performance carried out? New evidence found at The John Gray Centre in Haddington provides more in-depth information regarding these very questions. In this paper, I will discuss the reason why these questions must be asked of The Gentle Shepherd’s first performances, particularly since Ramsay was heavily involved in its initial production, and how this information can extend its performance possibilities in the 21st century.

Revisions after partner work

This is a task for day 3 of week 2!

Belcher workbook, day 2: Selecting a text for revision

Even though I have spent the whole day working on something entirely different, I have made sure to dedicate some time to new daily routine. Normally, I would decide to leave my own work to another day, especially when I have been go, go, go since 8am! And while I am all for self-care and leaving work at work, I also know that scheduling regular time to work on anything to do with writing is important. This is what Belcher preaches in her workbook. I cannot promise that I will be able to keep the momentum for all 12 weeks, but the key thing to remember is to jump back on the straight back on that running wagon, rather than lying in the dust!

Week 1, day 2

Today’s task is to select a text for revision, so here we go:

Praise; Has a professor ever suggested a text should be published or is particularly strong?

  • I have had several people contact me asking when my thesis will appear as a book publication. In the past 2 years, my thesis has been cited by quite a few scholars in the field and even on Wikipedia! It was even shared around the VoiceGeeks Facebook group for a while.
  • I sent 1 chapter to my supervisor a few years ago who agreed the material should be published… I did try to get this one into press but unfortunately, it never made the cut.
  • I must confess, while I have received a lot of feedback, even praise for conference papers no one has ever asked whether I will publish it as an article.

Pleasure: Are there any texts you enjoyed researching and writing

  • Part of my problem is that I love research everything, but I struggle with writing. That being said, I loved researching and writing my thesis and was so sad when it was all over.
  • I love making new discoveries and I want to be able to share these discoveries. I have recently given a conference paper that made quite a few radical suggests, and while this paper needs more work, I think there is something there (BSECS 2019 presentation, Ramsay panel & Pop Enlightenments panel).

Relevance: Do any of your texts address some aspect of a debate in your discipline?

  • At the time of writing my thesis, it felt like every new book coming out related to it. I was afraid to read these books for fear they have covered what I was doing. While some touched on similarly issues, none have covered what I have covered. Though we might be 2 years on, these debates are still somewhat fresh and relevant and I can relook at these books with fresh eyes.
  • My other papers are mainly historiographical and while I am proud of the detective work, they aren’t necessarily contributing to a key debate. Actually, one of my BSECS papers (Pop Enlightenments) is touching on a current HIPP debate.

Research: Are any of your texts particularly well researched?

  • My thesis was well-researched
  • Masters thesis was also well-research but is a number of years old now.
  • Conference papers are not as strong, perhaps need more reading?

Findings: Do any of your texts have particularly strong or unusual findings?

  • As noted, I love detective work so most of my papers showcase something unique, particularly my most recent conference papers (BSECS & ASECS)

Conference paper: Have you given a conference paper? Did it receive a positive response?

  • Yes and yes. See above.

Theses: Are parts worth revising?

  • Yes and yes!

Rejected article:

  • I did get an R & R on an article 2 years ago at the time, I didn’t realise this was not that bad. I really should go back to this one (Catherine Stephens article).

My chosen title

Venanzio Rauzzini and his women

I have decided to use the 12 weeks to rework the introduction of my thesis in preparation for a monograph proposal. I realise this isn’t what the workbook is intended for,  but it is something I want to get moving on and I am passionate about it! There is no harm in trying this for now and then redoing the workbook for one of the other articles  have identified. I realise that in doing this some of the tasks may not be relevant or work quite as well, but this is something I have been stuck on for a while. I am ready for it to be unstuck!